.Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ' 1:23 PM Y
ITS PARTY TONIGHT!
Thank god that AT LEAST i have a few friends who party! thats something sooo great! Well. i gonna enjoy myself to the max. finally, ive come to an conclusion to everything that im brooding so far. and so, tonight, i gonna go 'crazy' and vent out everything ive withdraw from. I GONNA BE MYSELF!!
New New year resolutions - get to know more and more friends from all walks of life! because i realise, my current friends are insufficient for me. probably now then i get to see their true self when things aint the same anymore. Like what one of my friend had told me, it takes time to see the whole picture. some will have their true self SLOWLY showing, while some, you will be able to see through it straight away. Kudos to you, because what you say will always turn out right. damnit!
Now, im Awake, awake from this long long sleep. And realise, things have changed;beyong expectation. Surprising, ive changed. *not too much thou. There's more wants to needs, and things around me now isnt sufficient anymore! No more easy-satisfied me, because many things happened and not changing for a better. Sucha disappointment.
and now, i tend to avoid rather to face it. i avoid things i hate, things that make me angry, things that disappoint me,things that make me emo etc! Practically, its EVERYTHING!!! thats why i travel. probably, i will travel once more this year end, to somewhere far. but, I DONT HAVE THAT MUCH OF MONEY TO GO!!! well. hopefully my dad will pay for me, and thats what he said!! however, its still long to talk it out now. because im worried that it may not clash with my holidays!
okay, and now, i know, im both a good and a bad girl. as being good, people take advantage of me. take advantage of my kindness, and my forgiveness, thinking that i will FORGIVE AND FORGET. Thought that i will have a good heart to forgive everyone, every situations, even im the VICTIM. even horoscope said that, I SWEAR! so, i contemplated almost everyday, a few months ago, and i come to a conclusion that I SWEAR im not gonna be good to EVERYONE. because, not everyone worth my tender care,concern and my everything! so i told myself i gonna be Good to my parents, siblings, relatives, families, BFAS ;) and to anyone who worth it!! Bad ..... hmmm. shant mention it here. well. im a flickered minded person. so i might be good and then bad to you at the same time! so, i can be a mean person if i really need to!
but to my BFAS, definitely u guys are spared!! :) the will of wanting to stick together, showed it ystd. but i really feel sad when i know one of us aint gonna be with us! really very very sad. HOW DUMB!!!! but we will not left you out, my dear!!! will still contact and haunt you everytime,everyday, i swear!!! :)) you guys brought fun joy and laughter, so how can i treat you guys badly??!!! i gonna face you guys for a very very very long time. so its wise enough for me to treat you guys very good, right? :))
and yes. im done with my new me. sometime, how i wish that there's a med in this world that allows me to forget everything and i can start all again, just remember the things and the persons i want to remember! oooooooo. lifes suck sometime,seriously!!!
im damn damn excited about the party tonight, and lets get crazy, friends!!!! WOOHOOO! and yes, consantly being reminded by my dear friends that im flying this friday! was wondering, why you guys are sooo excited about it whereby i dint realise that OH! its friday!! im flying!!! as if you guys are flying lor!!! haha! ;) i know, because you guys concern about me! hahaha! but, frankly speaking, im NOT excited about it. I've prayed to the Gods. and so, they will protect me! im sure i'll be back! :)
BON VOYAGE to myself :)
Love
berlyn
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