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.Monday, August 3, 2009 ' 8:06 PM Y

HAPPY LIFE. ENOUGH SAID.

Hello all.

Once again, I’m back blogging, once again. This time round, I gonna blog about dreaming.

Today, while talking to my silly boy, he said I texted him this SMS. Okay, it has been a norm for texting him ever since 21 July 09. So, he reminded me that I told him I’ll be going to Tampines to look for him, instead of him, coming over to Woodlands. However, ALL ALONG, I THOUGHT THIS WAS A DREAM until he told me of our plan this week over the MSN. Frankly speaking, I can’t remember sending him that text when I’m conscious. ~!@#$%^&*

So now, I’m mixing up my real life with my dreams, and that’s kind of shitty cause I cannot remember when/what is reality, and when I’m dreaming!

Since last week, Wednesday has been a day which I thought I have something on. In fact, there’s nothing on! However, I don’t know why I’m having the thought of doing something/meeting someone on Wednesday. So anyone, did I say I gonna meet you this coming Wednesday? Or rather, are you meeting me this Wednesday?

Okay. This is kind of serious, cause I’m worried that what if one day, I woke up from my sleep, and I realize, what I’ve been through now, was just a long dream! Oh gosh. I seriously can imagine the situation now, RIGHT NOW!

Damnit. I gonna wake up, realizing I’m in the hospital (I think), and saw my parents and relatives crowded around me with a smile on their face (It’s like “ahhh, finally”, after waiting for sooo long for my conscious, probably?). And I guess I’ll ask, “WHAT’S THE DATE FOR TODAY!” Meanwhile, I’ll keep my fingers crossed and prayed to all the god, Jesus, Buddha etc etc. Just for your info, this is not an insult. But rather, letting you guys know how desperate I am for not to be in other calendar year except 2009.

Come to think of it, will it be a happy thing for me??? Oh well, I CAN ASSURE YOU THAT, THE ANSWER IS NO, AND I WILL SLIP INTO DEPRESSION, and just die off if that was to happen.

I rather die if without the life I’m enjoying now, in 2009. With love showered on me from my beloved friends, family and last but not least, my dearest guy. I’ve worked so hard to achieve such life, and I don’t wish to end my life story with open ended ending. I don’t want everything to end so quickly. IVE YET TO ENJOY MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST! And I guess, this is just the beginning of my life, not even the center, nor towards the end. I’m still just a young adult! There’s still many FIRST TIME/ FIRST TRY for me to experience. I’m still a new kid on the block; named life!

So please god, don’t take away what I’m having now.

Oh yah. And this boy of mine has become even sillier, because we have been meeting for last week. He’d been travelling to woodlands for the past week, and I went to the zoo, again, with him. Though the place remains familiar, the feeling is totally different. I enjoyed myself to the max, and it’s great laughing at the giraffe!!! (That’s our private joke!) AND FINALLY, WE ARE TOGETHER FOR 14 DAYS! :D I’m glad to have him by my side.

Well. I shall go off now.

XOXO
BERLYN BAOYING

Life still goes on