hey all.

070909 is a bunch of numbers/code, which is extremely memorable, and its with a big bang. its finally, im 19th and well, maybe to those who are underage, they'll envy. however, to those who have already past this age, they will just want themselves to stop growing. esp to ladies i think.

last year, 2008, i always have the mind set of stop growing up since im 18 already and i lead a relatively good life now. i dont need more, so i assume, i can stop growing up. Moreover, i dont want to get old too.

but the year marched into 2009, i realize my life had improved further. From a relatively good to fortunate as someone has entered my life, with a bang! and that someone is my boy, Soon Han. and yes, he is the one who spend his time with me, celebrating my 19th birthday. Although things didnt go as planned, its still a splendid one. so maybe, a last minute plan is much better? i dont know, thats what i always think.

The events go like this :

In the morning, i went for my job training, which is relatively useful. I got to know the commission, and more informations of the products. My boy went with me, but he went for his hair cut while i went for my training. After that, we went to somewhere near there for dinner at chicken pot, i think. Not bad, and the shit is, i ate the whole bowl of rice. OH! and in the morning, i had half a big breakfast bought by my boy.

After our lunch, we went vivo for a movie, the time traveller's wife. A rather nice and touching show, though a little confusing in the beginning. but still, it rather worth to catch that show. but, this boy, WENT TO BUY A GV GOLD CLASS TICKETS! Which cost a bomb! just imagine, you watch a movie for 28 bucks per pax! just the tickets, but the ambience and all are really fantastic. well, it shivers me to see that ticket costing a bomb, the food too! we spend roughly 80 bucks on food. IMAGINE.when you finally able to eat OPENLY in a cinema, there's a price to pay; a high price! but what ever it is, i guessed we enjoyed ourselves, but i deep down my heart, i ached for him for spending this kind of money.

Then some shit happened after the movies, but surprisingly, he carried on some of his plan. We went to great world to buy an ice cream which i longed for since dont know when. And proceed to henderson wave.

and lastly, HOME SWEET HOME.

thats about it. but in between some miscommunication happened which i think, im at fault. and because of this miscommunication happened,which i guess the both of us learnt our lessons.

ive learnt not to take him for granted. well, its a long story why i really understood this stupid phrase. but its all because, he treats me far tooooo good, which makes me wanting him to treat me better each time. well. human being are greedy by nature, but maybe for this case, i'm simply very greedy. I ask for more each time.

not only that, i realize, i need to really stick to my promises that ive made so far to him. yes, ive been breaking my promises to him everytime, and i realized he has been forgiving me EVERYTIME. i do forgive him as well, but thats when im just throwing my tantrum. Deep down, im not even angry with him. but everytime when he got pissed or angry, its all real. yet, he forgive me, once and twice. i guess, if this was to apply to others, they might not even bother to be with me already. though his temper is not extremely good, he did forgive me at the end of the day.

just like ive been bossing him around during my bday, he did angry for "awhile", eventually, he still forgive me, somehow. i was really damn surprise because, while he was angry, he still planned for my bday. He still bring me to Great world to buy the ice cream and still bring me to henderson wave. Some how, these actions make me forgo what are the "mistakes" he had made all the while. well. thats love, i guesss.

Well. i really dint want to list down everything in detailed. but, all in all, ive learnt alot of things which i really really swear that i wont make it happen again.

yes, scars were made every time the promises are broken. the level of trust eventually lowered each time. what ive done cannot be undone anymore. everyone will definitely make mistakes, but im glad that he forgives me each time and at least i learnt something out of it. though he gets angry each time, well, thats the price of attending this lesson?? So, what i could do now to amend what ive done so far, is to treat him better; like as if he's gone the next moment.

though he was angry with me last night, he still texted me a long text, but he mentioned he dint stop nor love me lesser when all those bullshit happened. i dont know why, but the tears just rushed out my eyes. well. that text really complete that incomplete bday message he had on his netbook. yes, its an incomplete bday message but he completed just before 8th of september marched in.

well. no point crying over spilled milk, but to think of how to improve myself to become a better and good girlfriend.