yes, im blogging, once again. well. for the stupid job, i dont know why but probably because of my low sales, im on the stand by mode for this entire week except yesterday. its unfair!! being posted on a thursday, how heavy can the human traffic be?!?! sometime, i think the bosses themselves have to come and experience how difficult it is to sell their products, so when there isn't any sales, they wont push the blame to us.

well. im here to not just nag about my job, my purpose today is to blog about lies, as i said one yesterday.

hmmm. its a long story why i made this lie, but i think there isnt a need for me to write it down. On a moment of folly, i made this stupid lie to my dear, and yes, he is badly traumatized. its my fault, i clearly know that. but i really made that lie without the intention of hurting him, to break the trust he has in me etc. ive made a white lie to him, instead. but still, this incident was a very bad one. this is really my first time telling a lie to him, and i gonna assure u, my dear, this gonna be the first and the last time, alright?

its my fault, and i do feel bad. but it worsen when i saw him with my favourite tub of ice cream. oh my goodness, that kind of feelings............ its super, i dont know how to say. mixture of happy, upset, bad, touched and more. it simply, a mixture of all sorts of feelings till the extend, im confused with what im feeling at that point of time.

but still, we are sort of ok now. luckily he is not those who will be mad at me for like a few weeks and all. though i know he dint totally 'forgive'me, he did talk to me and all. heee. thats my boy!

though we do have little squabbling here and there, we all dont mean it. we care for each other just tooo much, till sometime, we overlook certain things. thats something id learned over yesterday incident because i lied because i was worry about him being ............................. ya. thats why i lied but eventually, the whole situation worsen. the lie, being the secondary problem, becoming the PRIMARY problem instead. or its the primary problem ever since ive made that lie.

whatever it is, i guess, we are much closer in term of our r/s as maybe having a little squabbling make us understand each other better. and also, allowing us to be truthful and open up to each other. cause i think, in a r/s, it a MUST to quarrel in order to have a better understanding of ur partner. but not a very big and grave one.

but all in all, ive learn that,