for.words.left.unspoken

.Wednesday, October 21, 2009 ' 8:54 PM Y

HAPPY

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So any turns that i can't see,
like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

- Happy by Leona Lewis (abstracted)

okay. finally i post a song and this song is extremely great! i love it. the MTV was rather saddening, talking about love (obviously).

Yes, i just wanna be happy. i bet all of us want to be, purely happy. But somehow, rarely we will reach that extreme state, of being happy for like the whole of entire week? Our mood will definitely be spoiled by something that eventually, ruin our day. That feeling is really kinda sucky cause you thought you're the happiest person in the world, especially when the people around you are rather low in their mood. Or rather you may think that such happy feelings will sustain with you for a long period of time. well. disappointment occurs when expectations are not met. so well. in the end, you will feel even worst.

i dont know why im blogging such a crappy post. Probably im simply really bored to death, sick and tired of the stupid BTT, and nothing to do. Lectures and waking up early from Monday to Friday really 'flushed' me away. And my two cheeks are getting red, and my classmates even thought that i wore make up to school today. So just imagine how red it is! and i bet its still red now. it worsen together with the stupid hot weather. sun hang there just like a giant spot light. oh my goodness. simply cant stand the weather.

So far, this week sucks to the core. Flooded with notes, informations, nonsense and the list goes on. Though there are my classmates accompany me throughout the day in school, the feelings can only be describe by a word, tired. Just a journey back to school from ikea can really 'kill' us. Throughout the bus journey back, i can see all of us,slowly, dozing off. maybe all of us aint use to the 9am timing cause its just the first week of school! i wonder how can i survive through tomorrow when im supposed to report to class by 8am.

though lesson should end at about 12 or earlier, i gonna stay in school to spend my time away just to wait for my BTT exam. i dont know where and how can i make time fly faster??!! pray hard i gonna pass it. after several try out on the stimulator, which gave me 2 pass and 1 fail. Doing the BTT questionair, and reading it once, twice and thrice.... cause it simply dont get into my brain. hais. dont know whats wrong with me today.

okay. i shall end here. enjoy your day guys!

WITH LOVE

BERLYN BAOYING

Life still goes on