for.words.left.unspoken

.Monday, November 9, 2009 ' 4:46 PM Y

THE SILENCE

You lift me up
and knock me down
I'm never sure just what to feel when you're around
I speak my heart
but don't know why
cause you don't never really say what's on you mind

It's like
I'm walking on broken glass
I wanna know but I don't wanna ask

So say you love me
or say you need me
Don't let the silence
do the talking
Just say you want me
or you don't need me
Don't let the silence
do the talking

It's killing me
(love in silence)
It's killing me
(love in silence)
It's killing me
(love in silence)

You let me in
But then sometimes
your empty eyes just make me feel so cold inside
when I'm with you
It's like rolling dice
Don't know where or how you're gonna make me cry

~ The Silence by Alexandra Burke(abstracted)

Hello guys!

im here blogging again.

today its a rather cold day, with small drizzle and cool breeze. It dampened my mood somehow, especially on my way back home, while listening to this song.

i dont know why, again, im feeling emo. probably because my mind has been very active recently. well. no more those bad dreams, but having more "nonsensical thoughts". Yes, im always being called as "crazy" for behaving so stupidly. I guess, its because im just feeling less secured as anybody else. But true enough, i got snapped out of that insecurity easily. so sometimes, i really dont know what im thinking, or doing, and the reasons behind it. For instance, during the way back home, i did think of lots of things to blog about. My school, My life and everything. But now, nothing i could think of it. Maybe im fine now or maybe that song sum up everything? i dont know.

i dont know why im like that recently. or i should say im used to behaving like that. Whereby my mood swings; happiness and sadness come and go. aint this a good thing when you see it at different point of view. Especially when you can get over with your sadness that fast. hmmm. come to think of it, maybe im not even that sad? just my imagination ran wild.

but come to think of it, sometime, i guess i really think just way too much. lost that confidence in myself, which i think, i never felt this way before. That weird feelings that really lowered down my esteem, faith, everything. Its something i cannot explain but still, im back to the normal me after awhile. But at that moment, i feel so weird and different, as compared to the 'me' im always feeling.

But at the end of the day, i'll be alright. okay. i shall end my post here.

XOXO

BERLYN BAOYING

Life still goes on