for.words.left.unspoken

.Saturday, October 23, 2010 ' 9:20 PM Y

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

I got over you.

it does represent something whenever i listen to this song. somehow, it slowly faded. im glad im able to do that. most importantly, with the helps of many people around me. at least, they care. especially my family, relatives and not forgetting, my beloved friends. my happy three friends as well as, other of my poly friends! :) they stood by me most of the time.

i do think of him on random days, random nights, random things, and at random places. sometime, some things do remind me of him. but, thats something that i couldnt avoid. because of the habit of being together, i guess?

i have spent so many nights, thinking how he did me wrong at times, and i grow strong, and learned how to carry on. yes, i do agree that the days before everything ended was fine. but still, all the laughing and crying still end.

for the past week, i thought i would be alright but in the end i m not. and that one day, i finally break down. i cried the whole afternoon and evening, and only to be alright at night. only after that, i am alright, really. from that day onwards, i no longer cry anymore because of this. Come on, life is still beautiful! with so many great people accompany me through. :D

i love my friends, my family and my relatives much more than i love myself. they never failed to cheer me up, and shower me with their love and concern. and i realize, after so much, i am much more big hearted. and now, im ready to be his friend, just friend. are you?

我能說出一千個一萬個理由去愛你
也能找出一千個一萬個理由去恨你

well, not 恨(hatred). i just put that here to show that i have alr move on. ;)

berlyn.

Life still goes on