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.Saturday, November 13, 2010 ' 12:50 PM Y

hello people

im back. and down with flu, and serious bad cough. but luckily, i have the nicest people to take care of me. sob sob. thanks jamie for the wonderful tea. MUACKS!

however, such sickness wont kill me, or rather stop me from having FUN, and of course, my internship. yes, my internship definitely gets better. manage to mingle around with other group of people. they are bunch of great people though. so i had some fun time during my company's Dinner and Dance. basically, at some point, the place becomes a dancefloor. people dancing, yelling over there. was shocked to see standard chartered people, so high. im lovin' it.

other than that, definitely some other fun outside of work. and that is PARTY. that fun we had, with alot of my dearest's friends. they are also another bunch of fun loving people to mix with. Though they speak english with some kind of slang(for some), i still manage to bluff my way through. especially with the effect of alcohol. oh people. i realize that i speak better english when im tipsy, or rather, under the effect of alcohol. funny, but thats the fact. but, i havent been so happy having fun outside, without any worries. Yes, my dearest was there. had fun together. most of my party was with him though. should thank him for bringing me out to party, and his friends. well. my other two BFAS are great too. this week, we didnt get to meet. :(

oh. went partying yesterday, and was like some HOT STUFF THERE. im serious! being hit on by this guy. he said im cute and hot! and im such a cooool BFS student. YUCKS!i find it damn disgusting, though deep in my heart, IM FREAKING HAPPY LA! heehee. come on, finally i unleash my power!! *wink* not only that, another fellow asked for my number. actually we met a few times in the club already. just that we didnt get the chance to talk more to each other. but still, well. my friend said im some hot stuff there yesterday. heeheeheee. met some other friends there too , though. gave them a hug when i saw them, and literally, he carried me up. not those fireman lift la!!!! oh my. did i become that light? i was so freaking scare. and i think my dance moves as well as my my drinking level improved after several "lessons". WELLWELL.. NO WONDER PEOPLE SAY IM HOT NOW!!!! :x

also! in my office, happen to talk to this man, he said. im always so cheerful, so bubbly, so happy. my boyfriend must be damn fortunate. HAH! i laughed out loud when he said that. and i asked him, is he? HAHAHAHAAHAHA. some crappy nonsense. but, its AN COMPLIMENT STILL! come on, who doesnt love compliment?!

okay. the above are some updates about my life. i dont know if anyone is reading but i just wanna pen down my life, my thoughts. so that one day, i can reminise what ive done when im young. lets get serious now.

i talked to my mum ystd morning, when i still have some time before i left the house for appointment. (hey jamie! i spelt appointment out!)

she asked me about this fellow, mr tan soon han. she asked if he got a girlfriend or not. well. i answered her, like finally. definitely, like all the other people, think that im being two timed, being cheated. however, i told her, when i was with him, we just got to know each other for 2-3 wks and then we got together. therefore this time round, he can be sooo versatile to be attached after a few weeks of break up. but still, she insisted that he cheated on me. well. whatever. though i did thought of that last time. however, its over.

but that is not the main thing. she asked if i feel sad or do i hate him. well. to be frank, its a yes, initially. i do feel angry and hated him, for somehow cheated on me. thats the thought that time. but come to think about it, if this girl is sucha big shot to come between us, she must be something.if not, why would he cheats.
and if he doesnt, that means that this girl must be someone who might be able to change him. change him to become a better person. because, i cant.i cant change him, or rather make him kicks his bad habits. thats why he needs someone else to take good care of him, in the future.

i dont hate him, for sure. we are still friends. whats the point of bad mouthing him, saying how he treated him last time and stuff. poeple might think that i am such a bad big bitch who bitch about guys who i broke up with, or being dumped by. in the end, it reflects about your upbringing. and if he gets to hear what i bitched about, he might think, phew. luckily we broke up. so embarrassing. LOL. this is based on my imagination. ya but still, i see no point bitching about, till now. a while ok, that is to vent anger, unhappiness. i wont say i didnt bitch about him, but come to think, i think what i said aint harmful. like those anger moment when i saw he was attached. but still, im happy for him to get himself a gf, probably able to tie him down. :X and i still hope the best for him. dont be sucha mean bastard. there karma!

so ya. thats what i wanna talk about. and ya, i felt that ive really grown up, my thought really got mature and sensible. my parents should be proud of me.

okay. i shall go off. bye

love
berlyn baoying

Life still goes on