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.Thursday, November 18, 2010 ' 11:56 PM Y

Hello people

I'm blogging. Today is a black thursday! Not a good day to be in. It's a dry, bored and serious stuck up Thursday. And I'm dressed all black! So I guess I shall stop wearing like that from tomorrow onwards. Had little fights with my leader, and I bet it's gonna be a awkward day tomorrow. I don't know what to do. I know I'm in a wrong too. Well. Things will turn out fine, I guess and hope. I still needa depend on her for the rest of my internship.

Oh well. It's Thursday! And I met up with my other darlings. We had fun eating at Aston. Yes. It's Aston. The place I hang out most when I'm with him. Yes. I mentioned about him again, without any anger or frustration. It's a friend Thingy. Anyway, I feel damn bloody fat now. Shall start my dieting soon.

Had a great chat with CY on the way back. Talking about my break up, and the relationship. Well this has always been a topic that my friends will catch up with. Neither am I sick nor tired of repeating cause I really learn Alot from it and would like to share with people. Not bad mouthing him, of course. But I told my friends, he is really a nice guy, just that he wasn't right one for me. Definitely there are flaws to a person, and I would not say that he doesn't have. And i do have it too. But well. After so much of turmoils that happened, I still hope and wish the best for him. Just like I told CY about this little "secret" of mine that I would think of when I'm praying. Secretly, I hope everyone is living happily, blissfully. And I really do!

I've turned out to be someone not so self centered. Cause I think of others as well. That's what the relationship had changed me Into. It's a good and bad thing. But still, when I'm mad, I'll just literally be mad and especially in my words. Just like the earlier post. It's a moment of anger, and when the devil in my mind took over. Now, after serious thoughts and chatting sessions, I laughed at the post. What am I doing!!! It's a great joke of the night , to me. Basically, now I can think better at night, not listening to any music. Music is a bad influence at times.

Well. At the end of the day, I'm glad that I take things lightly, especially in this case. I forgive and forgets! Seriously forget about the unhappiness. That's why I look happier in pictures, looks more photogenic! Nice nice. :)

Oh well. Am I still your bloody friend?!?! Heehee.

And I wanna say, thank you so much to those who have been Making my days. I love u Marcus, sien, Sebastian. And lastly, Jamie. They stepped into my life the right moment, and given the right amount of helps and concerns! Just drop me a call or text when you need me there, and I will devote my time to you. Just like how you guys gave me your ears, time and heart.

LOVE
BERLYN AW

Life still goes on