for.words.left.unspoken

.Wednesday, November 3, 2010 ' 9:18 PM Y

Now, even when i look at your photos, i still teared. at the end of the day, i still couldnt accept the fact that you are gone.

Yes, this is the dedication that i would want to tell him, but i do not have the chance to. True, its true that we are not very close, not even a tiny winy bits. however, as a friend, it hurts. we used to be that close, yet its so far now.

i still remember those days that you comfort me when i quarrelled with my ex bf, and how you would want to cheer me up. i remember the time when i failed my BTT for the first time, you wish me with all your luck before i go for the test, and u used all sorts of methods to cheer me up after that. you lived up to the promise of a friend, but i failed to be one. I reply you when i want to, and picked up your calls when i feel like to. and find excuses for not meeting you up.

when i went to the wake ystd,i then believed and convinced that you are gone. i couldnt believe that but still thats reality. also, i saw one of his closest brother. he asked where is my bf, and i said we broke up. instantly he replied, you see, why didnt you choose him that time. well. actual fact is, i get to know him only after i was with my ex bf. but still, i am such a bastard. i am seriously such a fucktard friend. and now, i truly regretted. somehow, maybe these are the reasons that make me even sad when i heard the news of your death.

Your life aint easy, nor smooth. im glad you found yourself a bunch of close brothers and friends. they are always there to support you, be with you. i know what you yearn for in life is damn simple,but i believe you can now enjoy eternal happiness.

forever the case, people regret and treasure what was left in the memories when the person is gone. and yes its so true. what was left with me now, are the times we used to contact and the last few glimpse of you that i took despite the fact that i was so terrified.but still, i held back my tears.

i hope you will be happy and enjoy yourself there. may god bless you. certainly, i will miss and remember you, Chun Wei, always.

with love
berlyn baoying

Life still goes on