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.Tuesday, February 1, 2011 ' 4:42 PM Y

"Where I Stood"

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

By Missy Higgins

This song describe how i was thinking and feeling. I dont know how much this lyrics describes me now, however, i do agree to some part of it.

Oh well. its a sad and emo song. And i still remember how im feeling when i was listening to this song this morning. Suddenly everything comes back; memories, feelings. no particular reasons for all these. maybe its like what marcus said, sometimes it (memories, feelings) will come back with no specific reason, some random thoughts. maybe this applies to me as well? i dont know.

Been leading my life well. despite of falling sick yesterday. Down with slight fever and yet, i still went for my combat class in the evening. Thats why i "suffered" at night. Finally i get to feel that feverish kind of feelings. havent been sick for a long long long time, no joke. and weirdly, i dreamt of markcus. its an extremely weird and hilarious dream that resulted me to laugh at it when i woke up. quite happy to start my day this way; waking up in the morning with a big laugh and a gentle smile. :)

oh. talking about my life, i have two big cases for february. Dear god, please let it go through. *keep fingers cross*

And its Chinese New Year reallll soon. im damn excited for it. finally i can let my hair down and indulge. Pineapple tarts, Ba Kwa, Cookies, Chocolates etc. Oh My God!!!
i feel like dying....

also, I HAVE TO ALTER MYSELF TO FIT INTO MY DRESS, INSTEAD OF ALTERING THAT! you can say im mad.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, PEEPS!

xoxo
berlyn baoying

Life still goes on