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.Monday, May 2, 2011 ' 2:46 PM Y

Just too Much

i have just too many things to say but i just cant find the (right) words.

Maybe things have been dragged too long. till the extent that im comfortable in such a state. Just like with my secondary friends. After several turmoils and we are back on track now. although its not the same as before, at least we are much better now. This is a change; which i am comfortable in it. and hope time would bring us further.
Apart from her, those other just simply refuse to let down everything. Ive make the initiative, however, since pride overtake everything, so i shouldnt invade their privacy then. SInce they are comfortable in that state too. You cant say you cannot forgive me, as nobody's perfect.

other than just friendship, i think ive been occupying myself up with too many catching up. be it with friends or family members. What i need now no longer will be just time. i need chances. I need to give myself(you)some chances.I need to break free from this life, although im contented with it though. However, i need to bring all these another step higher. Unfortunately, i do not know when and how.

So longer i cant figure out how and why, i will just chuck it aside, and attend to it some other day. yes, i know thats a bad habit. But, seriously. i have just too many things to think and worry about. Firstly, My job/work. Secondly, My life. Thirdly, My plans. It would be extremely great if someone can guide me along, or rather stay with me and accompany me through it. i know you would. :) just that, i dont know why things didnt advance further than where we are now. Dont know.

But i believe i would do something to it. I need a little more time to figure my way through, through many things which i think are more important than us now. SOrry, i may be or sound a little self centered. but i think once i got myself settled down, and have things planned properly and clearly, i will be a better person. trust me, i can. and will do it well. All i need now is jsut time. give me some more time.

Although i may be a confused person at time, i am aware of myself; how i feel and what am i thinking. if things were done up few months or weeks ago, i believe all these aint the way it is now.

Okie. im done. bye

Berlyn

Life still goes on